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Church
The big white church on First Street was just as easy to find as Pauline Johnson had suggested. It looked so quaint and old-fashioned – so very unlike the funky brick building that housed the church she had attended in Madison. The steeple rose above the rooftops of pretty houses on two sides, with a small parking lot beside it, as well. Cecilia parked her car towards the back at 8:47 Sunday morning, then followed the small stream of people making their way toward the front doors. Wide steps welcomed her up, only to be met by a dim entryway where she couldn’t make out the details of people or space.
“Good morning!” a friendly male voice greeted. A piece of paper appeared in a set of hands right in front of her. Not knowing what else to do, she accepted the paper and returned the greeting.
“First time here?” the man asked. Now she could make out that he was about 40, dressed in slacks, a button-down, and a tie, and ornamented by a shy toddler clinging to one leg.
“Yes,” she replied, trying to step away from the flow of people who seemed to know where they were going.
“Well, welcome to Bethel. Sanctuary’s straight through. Restrooms are to the right-” he pointed first to her right, then to her left, “and Bible class is in the fellowship hall after church. Coffee’s decent, too.” His smile was warm, open, and friendly. Her mind was reeling from all the words he had used. Sanctuary? Was there a lack of safety somewhere that people needed a safe haven? And what was a fellowship hall? Was this some kind of cult?
“Um, thanks,” she stammered, looking for a good escape route. Was there another means of exiting this building besides the front doors? She couldn’t very well leave the way all these people were entering. But this was nothing like her old church.
She suddenly noticed that everyone around her was dressed like the man who greeted her. Women wore skirts, dresses, or dress slacks. Some of the men even wore suits. She glanced down at her jeans – the nicest she owned, but still, jeans – and plain white t-shirt. She had made sure she was clean and presentable. She didn’t even own dress pants, and her black scrubs would hardly qualify.
Were people staring at her? She looked around and noticed a few curious looks, but no one approached. Maybe that was just as well. What would she say? ‘Y’all are freaking me out’ wouldn’t go over well.
When in Rome? Probably a better solution. Okay. Since everyone was walking into the church, she would too. She followed a young couple through the doors on the left, then slid into a seat just behind them. The seats were long wooden benches, not the cushioned chairs she was used to in church. She set her handbag on the seat next to her, then looked at the paper the man in the entryway had given her.
The front had a picture of Jesus holding a lamb. It was such a sweet and wholesome picture that it tugged at her heartstrings. She had once owned a small stuffed lamb, one of few little toys that warmed her childhood years. She had uncreatively named the creature “Lamby” and lugged it everywhere her mother allowed.
Inside was a very basic outline, listing songs with numbers after them, Bible passages, and some other church things she recognized like prayers and a creed.
Looking around the church, Cecilia realized there were no big display screens. How would people know what to sing? She watched the young couple in front of her for clues. The man pulled a book from in front of him. Watching over his shoulder, Cecilia saw him turn pages until the big number in the top corner matched the number after the first song name on the paper.
The shelf built into the back of the bench held Bibles and another book that was red with a funny-looking symbol like the letter “P” on the front. The red one is what the man in front of her had found the song in, so Cecilia followed his lead. She had another problem, though: she couldn’t read music. Maybe just reading the words would be enough.
All around her, people greeted each other and spoke quietly. No one addressed Cecilia, and she was just fine with that. She watched a man in a long white robe walk up the aisle as the church bell rang. She was pretty sure it was a real bell, even.
“Good morning!” the man in the robe greeted everyone. He was a little rotund, with distinguished gray hair and little wrinkles by his eyes that said he smiled a lot. He was the kind of man you immediately liked and weren’t even sure why.
The people around her said good morning back, as though in kindergarten again. Maybe this was where Pauline Johnson got her stern voice and old-fashioned expectations. Speaking of…
There she sat, on the opposite side of the church and a few rows up. Cecilia rather expected the woman to talk to her, so she assumed Pauline hadn’t seen her yet. Hopefully she was happy with the results of her facial.
“Today we’re celebrating Good Shepherd Sunday, an opportunity to remember Jesus as our shepherd and our sacrificial lamb. We’ll begin our worship with that beloved hymn, ‘I am Jesus’ Little Lamb’,” the man continued, then moved to sit in a big throne-like chair at the front of church.
Cecilia listened to the music – was that an organ? – and the people start singing, but she was sure she had never heard this song before. It sounded quaint and sweet, much like the building and the people in it. She felt like she should be wearing a hat and lace gloves, not jeans and a t-shirt.
It was so hard to concentrate on the service when virtually everything was brand new. The language of the Bible readings sounded different, the sermon was given from behind a built-in podium, and the pastor was much more subdued, not moving around the front of church emphatically. He talked about Jesus being the shepherd of Christians, in a lot of words that were honestly kind of confusing.
Cecilia’s mind wandered a lot, wondering what people around her were thinking. How long had they been coming here? Had everything once seemed as strange and new to them as it did to her? Or had some of them been coming here since they were babies? How would she ever learn?
And what did they think of a stranger in jeans?